So I was up last night thinking
[that's always a mistake]
and I came to the conclusion that i'm sick of feeling bad
so I wrote a letter to someone that i hurt a while back
i dragged him along and then shoved him away
that was not fair to him and i feel horrible about it
[still....(this happened about 7 months ago)]

the letter ended up being about 3 pages and i dropped it off today
we'll see tomorrow at the soonest if he even reads it
i hate when i do this to people
not only do i hurt them
[which i hate]
i end up hurting myself because i lose good friends along the way

i'm a horrible person
i hope the letter has helped
or at least opened a door
[or window...]
just some sort of start to mending


<3
Syd
xXx